Sometimes it's almost enough to...

So I had a lot to think about this past weekend. My mom came to visit me from home (Atlanta, GA), and it was a most lovely visit. That is an impressive distance of about (and this is just a rough estimate) 2530 km (1572 miles). Yeah, apparently I am worth that. I had been a bit down lately, through a variety of difficulties including poor health. Actually, I think that has been THE difficulty. I am always tired, I ache, and I just feel out of it in general. So, since she is the best mom in the world, she came out here and we spent almost 3 full days together doing fun things.
When I say that I had a lot to think about, it mainly came to be that my mom really wants me to go home for the summer. She said I could just rest up, not do anything, chill, etc. and then come back to school for the fall. Now, I had never really thought of that before. While I have been here pretty constantly since my return to school in August 2007, I never seem to overly loathe being here (snow excluded). So, when she told me that was what she thought was best for me, I had a lot of thinking to do. I weighed the pros and cons, and I was really troubled by just how much she wanted me to come home. So, given the options, I still decided that I would like to be here for the summer. Here being Provo. My mom noted that I had not had a real vacation in a while, mainly in that I didn't do anything fun last summer. Then I realized that there was a lot going on this summer that I would be missing if I went home. My friends that I have become close to over the past year, plus those that I have spent the year before last with, will all be here this summer. I also made plans to work 4 days per week and to take time off when I need it.
Granted, I still have plans to go home for a few weeks to see the family, as it would be sad not to, but I just can't see myself enjoying an entire summer at home. I would feel lazy, uninterested in things, and I would undo a lot of the social progression that I have made in the past year-plus.
So, while I would love to always make my mother happy, since she is the best person ever, I will have to go with what I feel is best for me and stay here for the summer. Hmmm...Now how to tell her...Sigh...

Because I'm bored...

So, it's been well over a month since I last wrote anything here, and not that anything exciting has really happened in my life since then, but whatever. So maybe I'll just write to say that I am tired, or that my back hurts. By the way, both are true today.
I will say that I have noticed that I am in a financial disaster at present. I blame myself because I just have not been very good with money since I came back to school a year and a half ago. I just haven't. So, here I am with too much credit card debt, plus being severely overdrawn in my Wachovia account...Sigh...So, what to do...Well, my mom and I talked and I think I will be taking out a student loan. Then I can have money enough to pay off the credit cards, pay the overdraft, and have MONEY! Like, real money. Money I can use to pay rent, money I can use to pay tuition stuff, and money to buy food! OK so the last part is a bit of a stretch, but you get the idea. I mean, summer is coming up, so I would start to make more money, but I need to make money that I can set aside for other things. So I can actually start to BUILD an income, not just live paycheck to paycheck. Granted I know I am severely addicted to CD-shopping, and while that will most likely not go away anytime soon, I am learning how to be more conservative and to WAIT. It's hard, but it's just what I have to do for now.
Anyway, I really have nothing else to say, but it feels nice to actually write something for the first time in a while. Ciao.