Too Tired

So, with the semester coming to its crushing finale, I am forced now to see the unhealthy fruits of a semester's waste of time. I have not done well this semester with any aspect of my education, and it is heart-breaking (Well...if I had one, it would be). Either way, I have lost a lot of ground this semester, and I think it mostly has to do with my lack of action concerning my health. As anyone who knows me well enough is aware, I am clinically depressed. By that, I mean I am ill, physically, and not just "oh, I had a bad day." It's really more of a "I had a bad...all-the-time". I am on medication (my "happy pills" that keep me semi-functional), but I think that there might be more to it than just the depression. This semester, it has become gradually more difficult to get out of bed in the morning, and within the past month or so, I have experienced soreness and achings that were not there before. While these may be more physical manifestations of existing problems, I am slightly concerned that I may have CFS (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome). It is a condition defined by aches and such, as well as never feeling rested. When I first returned home from my church service assignment over 2 1/2 years ago, I could not remember the last time I had a good night's sleep. I still am not sure if I have ever had one, most certainly not within the last year. It sucks because even when I get up and get my day started, I am still exhausted easily, and it is not a fun feeling to be stuck with. So, I have made a doctor's appointment (a few weeks ago that I rescheduled twice and then missed flat-out) for this coming Monday to perhaps see if there really is more to my condition than originally thought. If not, then I may consider a change in my medications to include one that deals with physical pains of depression (like Cymbalta). Basically, the next few weeks will hopefully see some changes in my well-being so that I am not so out of it. I want to have a fun summer of work/practice/friends, but it won't be nearly as fun or productive if I spend most of the day in bed completely drained. So yeah, fun times await us as we look into this. Won't that be fun...