Random Thoughts

Sometimes in my stream-of-consciousness sort of way, I have too many things on my mind, so I have to write some down to get them out of my brain. One thing is that, here at the BYU the school is closed on Memorial Day as far as classes and such though the library is open. Keeping that in mind, it is a holiday to celebrate the lives of those who have served in the nation's armed forces. So why, then, if that is the purpose of the holiday, is the US flag not flying outside the administration building? What on earth? Granted, I'm one of those people who doesn't stop in his tracks when the national anthem starts playing across campus, but even I think it's a bit odd that the flag isn't flying on a holiday such as this.

Secondly, I am so freaked out about moving to Boston. I am excited, don't get me wrong, but I am terrified about moving since I don't yet have a place to live and I am still trying to figure out how things work. In other words, I'm sort of wussy where that is concerned. But I have been much more active in my search for an apartment as of late and may have found one that I am interested in.

Third is my recital. I want it to be over now. It still isn't scheduled though I have a lesson tomorrow where hopefully we can move forward with plans and such. I feel like I am so close but at the same time it feels like that paradox where you always halve the distance to the finish line but therefore never actually make it because you can never reach it by halving the distance. Sigh...

Fourth, I am still mourning the loss of my dog Sadie. She is quite possibly the sweetest animal to ever walk the earth. She was a darling little girl and I am sad she is gone. While I have not yet been home for the summer to visibly note her absence, I can already feel it. She apparently either had some kidney failure or a tumor that was causing fluid buildup in her system and the only thing they could do wouldn't have helped much at all, so she was put to sleep a little less than two weeks ago. I was fortunate that I was able to say goodbye to her over the phone before she died, even if she had no idea who I was or what I was saying to her (I'd like to think she knew it was me).

Fifth, I miss my little Ms June, our other dog. She is my favorite to be around at home because she always wants me to rub her tummy when I see her and she sleeps with me at night. She's quite the goof ball, but I love her all the same. I guess that really is a cover for the more general complaint in that I just want to go HOME!!! I've been in Provo almost nonstop since January (excluding my weekend in Boston for my audition) and I would like to see my folks. Granted, they will come for my recital when it happens, but I like the carefree environment of my home and would like to get back there.

I think that's all I really was thinking about lately, at least as far as the negatives. I just feel a bit too stressed lately due to unfinished stuff, but it's coming along. Seriously, though, cannot wait to get done with my recital. We'll find out tomorrow how it's coming, though. Fingers crossed.