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So I should officially post on here that I have been accepted to the Longy School of Music for this Fall, so I am really excited about it indeed. I actually found out over a week ago, but again, with no computer of my own at present, I have forgotten to post something about it until now. So YAY! It will be fun to get out there and try something new. I am really looking forward to this.

In other news, with tomorrow being April Fool's Day, my friends and I are staging a fun day with the school's carillon (aka the bell tower). So if you are out and about on campus on the hour tomorrow, be sure to listen for weirdness. We are very excited for it, and I hope that people will appreciate the humor. And if you don't appreciate it, then too bad for you. I've been wanting to do this for years and finally put something together to do so. Enjoy!

A Shame when I have no Computer

So yeah, looking at this, I see that it has now been 3 weeks SINCE my audition at the Longy School of Music. I think it went relatively well, but it is always hard to tell. I am not going to find out anything for at least another week, and that is probably going to kill me. I just want to have my life planned out a bit. However, it won't happen until I hear back from the school. Sigh... That's actually honestly been the only thing on my mind for the past almost-month. So if I don't suffer a stroke or heart attack from the stress of waiting, I will probably write something on here regarding my audition results. Until then, maybe I'll just binge on Diet Dr Pepper... Oh wait...

2 1/2 weeks and counting

OK, so I now have 2 1/2 weeks before my audition at the Longy School of Music in Cambridge. I am really nervous about it all, but I am also looking forward to meeting professors and such. I have been working hard to get my audition pieces together so that I don't suck when I get there. Wow... I think that I have picked good music that really speaks to me and will let them know that I am serious about my music. I am playing the Toccata from the Toccata & Fugue in D minor (NOT the famous one everyone overplays) by JS Bach. It is piecing together quite nicely since I started looking at it in earnest these past few weeks. I am also planning on playing the final section of the Grande Piece Symphonique by Cesar Franck. That piece is a behemoth, but it is still one of my favorite pieces for the organ that I can see myself performing for the rest of my life. Finally, it is a toss-up between a Chorale Prelude by Hubert Parry or the opening of the Fantasia in F minor by Leroy Robertson. I'll have to check with my professor and possibly the Longy professors to see if the Parry is different enough style- and period-wise from Franck to play, otherwise it's the Robertson. Anyway, I am expecting good things to happen and I am really looking forward to getting out there and seeing the place that I have been in love with for almost a year. I am also excited to see my friends Dan and Michael who just recently moved up there. And Renee Fleming is performing with the Boston Symphony that weekend, so I might try and save up and go see her. She's performing the Vier Letzte Lieder (Four Last Songs) by Richard Strauss. They are some of the most gorgeous pieces of music in the world, and she is by far my favorite interpretor of the work. Anyway, enough of all that. I still have two weeks here before I go, so I need to stay focused and just practice hard. Lots to do, so let's not dilly-dally. We'll see soon how it all turns out. (Fingers and toes are all crossed for luck, and my front teeth [but I can't help that one...])

2010, like 2009 only less sucky

So I wanted to report that I have experienced vast improvement in my academic and personal life over the past several weeks. I have recently returned to BYU for my final semester, and I have so far only missed 1) the first day of class, since I was en route at the time and 2) one additional class period of my MWF 8am class. I am already doing so much better than I was. It feels as if the past year or so was a blanket of fog. I couldn't see any way through or around, but now that I'm out of it, everything seems so much prettier and peaceful than they had been in the fog. I mostly thank my new dosages of medication for helping me through. Also, I have wonderful friends and a wonderful family, all very supportive and wonderful people that I love deeply. Aside from next month when I will be in Boston auditioning for graduate school, I intend to not miss any classes from now til the end of the semester. And I think I finally have the tools necessary to ensure that it happens. And this time next month I can feel good about myself for having practiced more and getting things done, and giving a great audition. Anyway, that's all I have to say, since it is getting late and I'm tired from being up since 7am... Oh well, academia isn't easy, you know.

Ummm...

So the past few weeks have definitely not been the best weeks of my life. Not even close... But, life is slowly moving on, and I think that things are falling together in a good enough way that I am not feeling an urge to jump off the nearest cliff. I had to withdraw from two of my classes that I was not getting caught up in. One of these classes will not be offered again until Fall 2011, and let's face it: I'm not willing to stick around for that. After discussing options with both organ professors, I decided to look into the idea of leaving BYU with a near-complete BM and then complete the one class at another school (again, Longy). So basically I would be concurrently doing my BM and MM. I asked this school if they would accept that, and then the Director of Admissions said that they could work with me on that. That really made me happy. If all else fails, I will just grab my BA in Music and call it good. But if Longy will accept me with an incomplete degree and I finish after I've left, then I would consider myself incredibly blessed. The Longy School has really come to fit the bill of what I am looking for. Every time I think that I'm gonna lose my chance, something else comes up. It's almost as if I am meant to go there. Whether or not that holds up in the end mostly depends on how my audition goes in February, but I still have a really good feeling about the school. So even though my life seems to be a constant hell (a march through hell with a man strapped to your back and nasty litter of babies dangling from your teeths, to quote Gertrude Moon [Frasier]), I feel that there is still progress in my life. I also have very supportive professors who are trying to help me get through all of this, despite my personal problems. I am grateful for them, and I will certainly miss them after I've left. I just need a change of scenery and a fresh start elsewhere. So, in about 2 1/2 months from now, I will be in Boston, auditioning at the school of my dreams. Let's hope that I can get my things pulled together before then. So listen up Mr. Franck. I'm gonna get you, and your little 'Grande Pièce Symphonique' too!

Catch-Up

I sometimes forget why I even have a blog. I'm still not sure why really, but I guess I just like to write down things that I am feeling at any given moment in time. Things in school are going OK I suppose. I am still not incredibly good at getting to my classes, but I am doing far better than I once did. I have already been to my classes more than I had in any of them last semester. That's an improvement. But at the same time, I find that I am still struggling with certain things in life that I doubt will ever fully fall into place where I want it. That's ok, though. It gives me some things to strive for. A good friend of mine visited this weekend. She is currently attending the Eastman School of Music in Rochester, NY. Just talking to her about life outside of BYU makes me want to try harder to get stuff done here so I can experience life outside of here. I want to grow as a musician, and I feel that I am reaching a plateau here at the Cougar U. So, hopefully, when next fall rolls around, I will find myself somewhere else (cough, cough... LONGY), but we'll see. Until then, I need to step up my game and get things done. I am a little behind in a couple of classes, but I am doing much better. I should be caught up by the end of this coming weekend. That will be nice.

So close!

So school starts in less than two weeks, and contrary to popular opinion, I am ready to go. I am, believe it or not, kinda tired of living in Provo and would like to try something new. I have been in contact with the Director of Admissions as well as the Head of the Early Music Department at Longy (the organ degrees are offered through that department, but I am not restricted to early music). Both have been very kind to me in regards to questions I have about the school. As I have stated before, this school is an amazing opportunity for me, and I would feel very honored to be accepted there. Auditions are being held in February. The Admissions director actually told me that, since there are very few organ applicants each year, they will most likely be able to work around my schedule if needed. That was pretty cool. Coming from BYU, where the music department has roughly 800 or so music majors, it will be quite a change. Longy has less than 250 students. So, if we did it by proportions, 15 out of 800 students are organists here at BYU. That would mean (proportionally, of course) that less than 4 out of the 250 students at Longy are organists. That would be awesome! Well, mainly because it would mean that I would get even more individual attention from my professors, especially as a graduate student. Anyway, not saying that number is accurate (still waiting to hear back from Professor Fitch), but it is still a neat place.

Either way, I am ready to move on to the next phase of my life, which will be getting underway shortly. I am hoping to be able to visit the school sometime before Thanksgiving in order to become somewhat acquainted with the facilities and the faculty there. Prof Fitch also told me that she would arrange for me to sit in on some classes while I'm there. That would also be cool. Anyway, so that's what I am looking forward to over the course of the next year. I am ready to move on to different things and to try something new. That's what life is about, right? I don't want to be stagnate, and this would really open up opportunities, such as church musicianship, that just are not available in the predominately-LDS Utah. So yeah, let's go!